TONIGHT.

it is 3.28am as i am typing this down.

when i was trying to sleep earlier, there was noise coming from the ceiling &&& it was definitely not the kind of noise that a rat can make. the noise lasted for 5 minutes before repeating itself again &&& again. i was feeling fearful, really fearful, thinking that something could happen to my family.

out of curiousity, i had the guts to walk out from my room to check my both my sister and parents' room to see if there are anything peculiar. also at the same time, i messaged Kenny to tell him how fearful i was feeling. he was there to convince me that everything is okay &&& that if i really need to wake my parents up, i should.

but everything was okay.

now, the sound is gone.

it is now 3.36am as i am typing this down.

i wish to sleep but my heart is still pounding very fast as if i have just completed a 100m race. i am still nervous, i am still thinking what if something really happened earlier? 

i would regret for not telling my parents &&& sisters often enough how much i love &&& appreciate them, also how i would give up anything for them. i would regret not telling my extended family members, from my grandmas to the little ones, how much i appreciate them. i would regret for not telling Ainsley, Calvin &&& Kenny often enough how lucky i feel to have them in my life.

the time is now 4.02am.

i feel better &&& relieved now.

i will make sure that i do not regret.

good night.